To create this music video, I used old video cassettes my parents filmed when I was little—just what I needed to illustrate the song! I also included some more recent video clips towards the end.

“Be You Again” is the centerpiece of this album; I think it best captures my state of mind during my teenage years. Throughout that time, I regretted every day the life I had before—the life where I was happy, fulfilled, and carefree. I was carefree because, ironically, all I could think about back then was growing up. I didn’t realize how lucky I was to have a stable home, grandparents we could visit regularly, lots of friends at school, and amazing teachers at my music school.

Today, though, I truly love my life. That difficult period has come to an end; I’ve met incredible people and found a healthy balance that allows me to thrive every day.

The purpose of this video is to celebrate the joy of childhood while also paying tribute to my grandparents and my pets, who hold a special place in my heart. I have a deep thought for my grandmother, who passed away in 2023, and my cat “Happy,” who was by my side for over ten years. With a heavy heart, I also want to honor my little dog “Moshi,” who passed away on April 5, 2024, just days before I wrote this article.

This video is filled with the regrets of my teenage self but also with love for those close to me. Our loved ones won’t be with us forever, so I’m trying to cherish every moment I have with them!

My composition

I have always been in a pop style, and yet when I rediscovered Mao I naturally leaned towards a more cinematic style, far from what I used to listen to and play. And I still don’t know why, I was very surprised and still am, but that’s what happens when I let myself go.

Despite having music theory classes in an academic setting, I still feel I have a certain freedom to do whatever I want. Whether it’s rhythmically off-kilter or dissonant, these are things that don’t bother me; on the contrary, I sometimes enjoy playing with them. That being said, as the months go by and I gain experience, I think my new pieces are becoming more and more formatted.

On my first album “Memories of a forgotten time,” I notice a break in my album between the 5th track “Twenty” and the 6th “Manhunt.” The pieces have become less personal, they no longer tell my story but other stories that are not mine.

I don’t visualize the stories I tell, I hear them of course, but the visual aspect is missing. I’m lucky to have my boyfriend who started telling me stories he imagines when I play him my pieces, and thanks to him, I immerse myself in the visual aspect of music, I see everything he sees. This allows me to complete the missing part of my pieces.